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I am not on top of things all the time, even though it might seem that way (and I wish I was). Sometimes I just want to hide under a blanket and cry.
I am not someone who likes hanging around a big crowd, I am much better with people on a one-on-one basis. I am not into drama. I am not saying that hanging out with a bigger group can’t be fun, but mostly I prefer individual relationships with people.
I am not afraid of honesty. If I ask you something, I expect you to tell me the truth. You don’t need to sugar-coat things if they aren’t pretty. I’d much rather deal with the truth than wasting my time trying to figure out what the truth actually is. If you ask me something, I’ll tell you the truth as well.
Maybe that’s the straight-forward European in me, but if so, so be it.
I am not into horror movies, like at all. I really don’t see the point of watching them and I am kind of scared of the people who come up with the plots. I am not ashamed to say that I’d go to bed afterwards being terrified and afraid of nightmares.
I am not into being told what to do, or given unsolicited advice. If I want your opinion, I’ll ask you for it. Otherwise, keep your pie-holes shut about things that don’t even concern you.
I am not proud of the fact that I have disappointed people. It was never done intentionally, but sometimes no matter what you do, somebody gets hurt. I am not making excuses, but telling it like it is.
I am not good at making decisions. I especially dread the small, every day decisions that have to be made. What’s for dinner? What shirt am I going to wear today? Do I want my hair up or down? What movie do we want to watch? I’d rather have someone else make these decisions for me.
I am also not keen on making decisions when other people are involved. I am not implying that I don’t have an opinion, but I’d much rather do what my husband/friend wants to do and know that they’re happy with the decision than make the decision myself and having them tell me afterwards that this was not what they wanted to do. For me, it’s all about the company, so I don’t really care what we do as long as we do it together!
I am not going to agree to do something I don’t want to do, just because everybody else is doing it. I’m not concerned about what other people think of me. I am not afraid to stand up for myself and what I believe, even if that means that I am in the minority or that someone won’t like it or disagree with me. I have always been that way and I am not too humble to be proud of this. Although, I am a pretty humble person otherwise.
I am not feeling like a grown up, really. Most of the time I feel like I am just pretending. I am not sure why that is or when I’ll finally feel grown up. Just because I have grown-up responsibilities and handle them fairly well doesn’t mean I really know what I’m doing. I am not opposed to the notion that maybe, I am still a big kid at heart.
Kyla Roma
May 4, 2010 at 5:33 pmThis is such an interesting portrait that you paint- I love hearing about this other side! So much of the time we try to define who we are, but the negative space is definitely just as interesting. =)
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Maribeth
May 4, 2010 at 5:35 pmI am not a lot of things, but then, sometimes the things I am not, make me into a better ME!
I think you are pretty great for the things you are and for the things you are not. :o)
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Steffi
May 4, 2010 at 11:14 pmYou are speaking right out of my heart.
I don’t feel like a grown up AT ALL!
And I really have trouble sometimes in realising that everybody get’s older and that – in fact – I am getting older too. People I knew as a kid died and many people I know since I was born are pretty old already. I recognize little things they can’t do anymore because of the age and I wonder where the time went.
It’s funny.
When I talk to the girls at the stable – all around 16 to 19 years – I have to remind myself that I am no longer one of them and that I am actually about 10 years older.
How do other people do that?
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Deia
May 4, 2010 at 11:34 pmThe straight forward Europeans… Yes, that’s what we really are ;-)
Sometimes I feel a lot older than I actually am, but on the other side I’m just this little girl that LOVES to do “childish” things and just play around…
Happy Wednesday and have a wonderful time in Germany…
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Tinka
May 5, 2010 at 4:38 amGreat post! haha…. yes, I don’t feel like a grown up either. Funny that I’m gonna be a Mom by the end of this year. :)
Stefanie
May 5, 2010 at 5:23 am“For me, it’s all about the company, so I don’t really care what we do as long as we do it together!”
I am feeling the same way about being with friends, family or whomever. All I really care about are the conversations together and the time spent together.
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Emily Jane
May 5, 2010 at 5:40 am“I am not afraid to stand up for myself and what I believe, even if that means that I am in the minority or that someone won’t like it or disagree with me.”
Words to live by :)
Thank you for sharing such an honest reflection with us.
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Tanja
May 5, 2010 at 6:40 amInteresting, very interesting! Like I mentioned before – it seems we have a lot in common….
Carolina
May 5, 2010 at 6:48 amThere are so many things in that post that resonate strongly with me. I mean after all, we are both Pisces (if you believe in that sort of thing!)
But this one is the one that you articulated perfectly for me:
“I’d much rather do what my husband/friend wants to do and know that they’re happy with the decision than make the decision myself and having them tell me afterwards that this was not what they wanted to do. For me, it’s all about the company, so I don’t really care what we do as long as we do it together!”
Why is it that feeling that way is considered weak or not having an opinion? My choice is for the other person to be happy…that makes ME happy! Thank you for writing that, it’s nice to hear it from someone else!
Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks
May 5, 2010 at 7:38 amBased on what I read here, I’m quite certain we’d get along brilliantly. Or at least we’d be honest with one another when things aren’t going so well. =)
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Kat
May 5, 2010 at 9:24 amI really loved those last two posts you did because I always enjoy getting to know my blog buddies a little better. ;)
… And I COULDN’T AGREE MORE about the horror movies; thrillers in particular. I don’t want that kinda extra stress in my life! Ha.
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terra
May 5, 2010 at 10:12 amI’ve written about it a bunch and agree with you that I don’t feel like a grown up. I feel like I have grown up things to do, but mentally, I’m still a kid.
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Irene
May 5, 2010 at 2:06 pmGreat Post!!
I totally feel the same about some things on here …makes me want to meet you in person even more because I think we would get along good…
I am not on top of things…SO TRUE…I have two kids and they kill me and my nerves on a daily basis, I go to bed often being exhausted and questioning if I do it right and just want to cry. This also makes me feel not at all grown up even though I am over 30, have a family and a job and most certainly should be grown up…but I don’t even think I look 30, at least not as much as I imagined myself to look at that age, I think I look younger and am also told often that I do
I am totally honest…if something bothers me I have to talk about it and discuss it…my hubby hates me for that, he’d rather have that I was quite and get over it that way…
Horror Movies give me nightmares, too…what a waste of time! Why should I enjoy watching some sicko fantasy of someone who seems to enjoy killing people in the most absurd ways?
I also would rather spend some time doing stuff my hubby enjoys if that means we are together instead of being apart and I often give him the time to go on a trip with his motorcycle so he can get away from the “family stress” and relax even though it means I am alone with the kids. He on the other hand has unfortunately to big of an ego sometimes to do that and rather wants me to do stuff alone instead of doing stuff I enjoy and he doesn’t…
ute
May 5, 2010 at 5:05 pmhi sweets! i love “the child at heart” part I hear ya! :) I love the way you write by the way it is always so much fun to read it ;) Why are you living so far away again??? love ya!
Lisa
May 9, 2010 at 3:25 pmI love this!! I think it’s such a fun experiment to say who you ARE based on who you’re not.
Also, when I was younger I used to watch horror movies. I don’t know if I was actually INTO them or if everyone else was watching them, so I was…but these days? Um, no. Thank you. There are about a billion other things I’d rather sit and do besides watch a horror movie. As I’ve gotten older I’ve come to think it’s a rather sick concept…to want to sit and watch people get tortured/mamed/mutilated?? WTH? No thanks. I’ll take my optimistic RomCom over that, any day. :D
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